twinkle, twinkle, little whore

See the thing about the quote above is that...

What do you when your happiness depends on someone else? Someone who you can't seem to go a day without. Someone who never left your mind. Someone who you can't hate. No matter how hard you try. Someone you just can't walk away from. No matter how far your feet has taken you.

I'm now in this long process of leaving and letting go. I'm not gonna lie, this, might be the hardest thing I've tried so far. You, sir. Are like gravity. Every time I'm ready to leave. You keep pulling me back.

I can't go a day without knowing what you've been up to. I can't sleep without the thought of you're going to be the first person I receive a bbm from. I-JUST-CAN'T.

Well...I guess it's true. That sometimes, it's not the butterflies that tell you you're in love. It's the pain. It's the awful feeling you get when you know you made him sad.

It's the guilt you get when you can't be there whenever he needs you. It's the smile you make without even noticing because he suddenly crossed your mind. It's the laugh you fake just to make him sure you're fine with what he's doing. It's the little heart-attack you get when you hear that he's hurt. It's the comfort you feel when you're by his side. Wherever you both are. 

It's all of that mixed and crumbled together.

It's one, big, true feeling you can't easily explain.

Maybe, just maybe, we're meant to be. Or maybe, this is just God's way of showing how it is to love someone so bad that it hurts you to see them down. It's the guy you think he's better off without you. Just... you know, happier.
here's another quote. from Rihanna's MV, We Found Love.

It’s like you’re screaming and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish you could have all the bad stuff back, so you can have the good.

nom, if you're reading this, i hope you're okay.

asdfghklove,

davia.