Ricky The Sheriff

HWAAAAA CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN THISSSS ♥

asdfghjklove,

davia

Another long sleepless night..

So hehe ricky's already asleep :( ohya i haven't said anything since my last post about our terrible break up. I actually convinced myself to call him (while crying like hell) and said sorry so yes we're back together now hihi i am so labil coy ;( but it was so hard to spend a day without talking to him.
not only ricky, all of my friends are probably asleep right now and i am here super galau about college :) ya so i am undeniably....

I got bored and downloaded line brush. a very cool app! a total must have! :) hehe
from line brush i created these babies :( huhu

AND NOW RICKY WON'T STOP TELLING ME TO CHANGE MY MIND AND TAKE DESIGN INSTEAD OF COMMUNICATION OR BUSINESS.

:(

bukan karena gak yakin sama jurusan itu. bukan. bahkan kalo diibaratin kompas. jarum gue bakalan nunjuk kearah situ terus. karena passion beserta hati gue ada disana. oke lebay.

tapi.......mungkin bakal lebih baik gue ambil komunikasi atau bisnis kan? design banyak pesaing berat :') dan kemampuan gue sangat-sangat pas pasan dan gak cukup buat bersaing disana. ok. makin lebay. makin galau.

sebenernya reza juga ngomong sih. dan dia sangat mendukung gue di desing. thank you, za. lo sahabat yang sangat sangat emangdeh. hm.

cuma........................bimbang bgt :( 

HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU hrs bobo kayaknya deh.

Thank you for nampungin curhatan gue yang gak mutu ini-_-

Asdfghjklove,

Davia.

chan
apa bun?
aku sayang kamu
aku juga sayang banget sama kamu

Forget Jakarta

Assalamualaikum....
Hahahahahahahaahahahahahha-_- ok blogging here probably should be the last thing i do because the shit inside this blog only makes me want to cry!
:--) i just recently broke up. yes. with him. the guy i used to write about. and probably won't write about anymore. all of that "me and you against the world" means nothing anymore now.
have you guys ever been there before? where you want to still be with that someone and wants to keep the other one as a close friend and end up losing both? yea well that sucks and i'm going to make sure that doesn't happen again.
I wanted to post about my birthday but....he he i'd rather not. :)
SOOOOOOOOOOOO hehehehehehehehe i'm single now :-) not really happy about it but yea whatever hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehe it's pathetic how i keep typing "hehehehehehehehe" / "ahahahahahahahah" just to fucking cheer myself up because even my iPod makes me want to cry :'( huhu. bad iPod. baaaaad bad iPod!
i still don't have the guts to open my documents>pictures>mine.
i still don't have the guts to end this nicely.
i don't have the guts to longer open my fme. :''''''((
i don't even have the guts to do anything anymore.
i'm still on my midterm btw-_- thank God Math and Economy passed already even though i shit myself during the exam ahahahahahahahaha no. not good dav. don't laugh about this one.
ok. pernah gak kebangun jam 5 subuh gara-gara ketiduran pas nangis, belum puas jd bangun, baru melek, langsung cerrrrr....
eh mama masuk "kok adek udah bangun sih jam segini?" "hehehehehe" trs dia nyamperin lo. meluk. bercanda. dan lo cuma bales meluk, ketawa, tapi mata lo berair air.
rasanya baru aja kemaren kita sepakat buat sebulan sekali makan seafood berdua. dan ternyata emang baru dua hari yang lalu. jleb.
pernah gak ngerasa "cowok ini cowok terakhir yang gue sayang" dan rasanya yakin banget, sampe sampe lo putus dan masih yakin? :)
pernah gak lo ngerasa jodoh terakhir lo itu dia? jadi ya abis putus gak akan dapet jodoh lagi.
ok. lebay. tapi, gue ngerasain semua itu. sekaligus. sekarang.
mungkin karena dia cowok pertama yang bikin gue bener-bener sayang. atau mungkin, gue udah terlalu terbiasa ada dia selama dua tahun kurang ini jadi rasanya dia udah jadi bagian dari hidup gue. keseharian gue. dan gak mungkin gue ngelewatin hari gue tanpa dia. gue ulangin lagi dengan font bold.  gamungkin. gue ulang lg deh dengan italic. gamungkin. sekarang gue underline. gamungkin. ya pokoknya intinya tuh gamungkin deh. susah. ato bahkan ya....GAMUNGKIN.
kadang gue bingung sama hati + otak yang sama sekali gak temenan gini. harus gue jodohin emg. biar gak begini amat lovelife gue.
gue emang putus. tapi gue belum kesampean ngasih kaos woody-nya ke ricky. bakal masih gue kasih walaupun lewat perantara.
gue belum kesampean bantu dia beli bass. dan iya. gue bakal tetep nabung, nyisihin setengah uang jajan gue tiap hari buat bass dia :) kalo ditolak nantinya....well. itu urusan nanti.
yg paling bikin gue sedih adalah....
kalo ngambek gaada yang nyuruh gue dengerin lagunya ne-yo yang mad. gak ada bro.
kalo gue kangen gak ada yang dateng dan bersukarela jadi samsak, guling, boneka dan sebagainya.
kalo gue nangis gak ada yang nenangin. kyk skrg, ha ha. sip.
kalo gue ngerasa jelek gak ada yang ngomong gue cantik.
kalo gue ngerasa makin gendut, gak ada lagi yang bilang "aku suka kamu gendut. aku sayang sama kamu."
tuh. kata sayang tuh. gak ada lg kan dav yg ngmng beribu ribu kali sehari cuma buat ngingetin ke lo :)
gue td mlm jg deactivate twitter dan facebook. kyk org tolol. gue gatau mau gmn. mau mati masih byk dosa. mau berhenti makan ntar kurus.
mau nangis....udah. ampe capek gue.
jadi gini selama ini nyaranin orang move on tapi stuck sama satu orang dan kemungkinan besar bakal selamanya stuck?
udah tau gue calon gagal move on, gue tetep batu nih gak mau balikan kalo diajak. KALO diajak, goblok-_-
mau nulis novel. cliché abis bro kesannya. ntar isinya curhat curhat ga penting lg. maludeh.
ya pokoknya kalo lo ketemu gue di tengah jalan, liat gue ketawa-ketawa. jangan sapa gue trs nanya "weits udah move on lu?" antara gue meraung raung meluk kaki lo sambil nangis-nangis.....ato.....gue ketawa makin keras. beli eskrim dracola. makan sendiri di pojokan.
gaklah. gue pasti jawab udah. jaim dikit. abis itu plg ke rumah mukulin dada nangis-nangis di deket jendela balkon. krik.
sekarang iPod yang gue shuffle pun mainin lagu Back In God's Hands dari Nelly Furtado. yang reff-nya begini;
"we forgot about love, we forgot about faith, we forgot about trust, we forgot about us.
now our love's floating out the window. our love's floating out the back door. our love's floating up to the sky, and heaven, where it began...back in god's hands."
ok. galau dav. galau abis.
"we gave a lot, but it wasn't enough...we got so tired, that we just gave up."
ok. stop dav.
gue pusing. gue hancur. gue gatau harus pake kata-kata apalagi buat ngejelasin perasaan gue yang ribet ini. :):):)
oh well. semua salah gue sih. tapi semua juga udah lewat, udah terlanjur.
jadi, davianya mau siap-siap buat kesekolah jam 11 nanti ya ;)
thank you guys so much. i don't use twitter anymore so i probably would write here a little more often (:
oh ya just incase all of you are asking about the posts i wrote about him. && about his face on a buzz lightyear body. i am removing none :) because i'd like to keep them as a happy memory rather than a sad one. because no matter how sad i am right now, i used to be the happiest me when we were together.
i will never ever ever ever forget you although it would be nice if i could just forget this heartache :)
hey:) thank you for reading ya. i love you ({}). have a great life.

asdfghjklove,
davia.

Mid term & Try Outs are comingggg :( which means i might not blog as much as i used to.

First Vid!

sorry for looking like shit! he he i'll be posting some more next time :) mwa

xx.

Loving Gimp!

HE HE SO RECENTLY I JUST FIGURED OUT HOW TO PUT A PICTURE INSIDE A TEXT! Yay to Gimp! I almost gave up on you :') akakakakakakakaka so here are some of the texts i made hihihihhii

so...............what do you guys think? :$ hihihihihihihihihihihihi i am so happy right now. at first it was so hard :( but now that i finally memorise how to make it. its very simple. although i cannot write a tutorial here because i did not look for it in words hehehehehehehe :D but you guys can google how to do it! :) hihihihi good luck!

asdfghjklove,

Davia

Rainy Days

why does it have to rain all day in october :( ugh. why can't october be a sunny and happy month?!
now that me ma and pa are no longer having tea while the sky's wetting the ground. i no longer find it pleasing! i hate wet days. i haaaate not having to do shit outside.
hihihihihihihihihi btw its almost my birthday :( not so excited about it. i...don't know. its just hilarious when people throw super big parties to celebrate their 17th birthday and says "it only happens once" well. doesn't that apply to each birthday? your 1st birthday only happens once as well. and the money! God! how much did you guys spenddddd-_- just to treat those who are capable of buying their own food! there are people who lives IN the street. hungry! not having anything to eat for tomorrow.
well i guess some people are just waaay to rich to give a fuck eh?

i have nothing more interesting to say. i should probably get going.
i hope the sun shines and its a beautiful day tomorrow...:) ☀
heheheheeheheheehehe enjoy the rest of your day! have some tea and feel good! ♥
Adiosssssss!

asdfghjklove,
Davia☂

Thursday, boring thursday..

*coughs*

Dear unknown readers out there,

i had a super boring day today. and i am willing to share this boredom with those who are willing to accept it. and even though i'm pretty sure that nobody wants to feel bored, i am sharing it anyway. via this blog post. he he.

nothing fun even happened at school today. my ex-best guy friend is acting like a little bitch and i hate him for that. it's funny how pathetic he is right now. i don't even feel like sitting in front of him anymore. but i can't move seat because the only person i'd like to sit with is empang :( and i know for sure that mpang does.not.want.to.move.seats.

so two of my girls broke up today. hm. 

took a two hour nap and woke up feeling like superman so decided to open blogspot right away! woop :D missing all these blogging energy hihihihihihihi

mid-term is coming. my only wish right now would be "not hitting my head on the table while looking at the question sheets".

oh ya i also ate nasi padang twice today. the first one i ate with ma, the second one with bee. hwaaa :| i feel like a pregnant horse right now :( so fat.

although. 

i have a bonus for all of you hihihihihihihi i just created my list of recommended songs of the month! to cheer your october up! :) here's the list; (p.s. not all of them are new. i just put my fave songs there hihi)

In My Life is an "all time" song if you get what i mean..:) i guarantee (although not to everyone. just those with good taste of music) that the song will never, ever ever bore you. hihi :)

that's it for todaaaaay! :) thank you for being the best site to share shit.

i could not imagine what i'll be doing right now without you, bloggy! #muchlove.

asdfghjklove,

Davia.